Hello Baby

We decided to keep the whole baby thing on the down low until we were ready for the whole world to know, so for over a month I basically avoided my mom haha. We finally told our parents and then made it fb official a couple days later. We printed out the picture I posted on fb and gave it to our families to announce this little baby's arrival.
Honestly, as horrible as this is, for a while I wasn't all that excited. I mean I knew this was what I wanted, and it wasn't an accident so why wasn't I as happy and excited as all of my other pregnant people encounters?! It didn't seem real, it almost still doesn't. I just felt so sick and kept thinking man, why do people willingly go through this (I know, I probably sound like the worst person ever). But I promise I really do want to start our family and be a mom, I just feel so sick and it doesn't seem like there's actually a baby in there so I think it has been hard for me to find that "glow" or that "this beautiful baby from God that I'm holding!" I'm sure I'll get there but I really just haven't found that yet :/
Although I will say, it turns out all I needed to do was tell my mom and let everyone know! After being out in the open, it started to feel a little more real, at least the excitement part!

So far with this pregnancy I have not thrown up. There have been a few times where I probably could've but I kept it down. Other than that I've just been super nauseous, heartburn, and  I'm tired. So tired. I've found a couple light stretch marks and I swear, you couldn't pay me to walk around with my pants buttoned, the pressure makes me nauseous! Any pressure, even to the point of a fitted shirt, makes me feel so sick. Man have garments been hard. So weird right? anyone else have this problem? I hope its something that eventually goes away.

So this is 12 weeks: I'm starting to feel better, everything is lightening up. My cravings have been mashed potatoes and sparkling beverages. Sonic is my new best friend. Only Sonic Coke is good right now, cherry limeade, and the occasional apple cider desire.
Chicken? The look (specifically grilled chicken), gag... the taste... no no no! That was a really tough adjustment in our house. I don't generally cook a lot but when I do (or did) it's chicken and rice, chicken and noodles, chicken casserole, anything chicken... The first couple weeks of no chicken were pretty rough, I had no idea what the frick to eat! So, it ended up being a lot of jack in the box, pizza, taco bell, pizza, in n out.. basically junk and fat. BAD IDEA. Ever had a ton of fast food for like 10 days straight? man the weight finds you. Ever since that little episode I've only gained a few pounds on top of the fat food pounds. Oops.