Hello Baby

We decided to keep the whole baby thing on the down low until we were ready for the whole world to know, so for over a month I basically avoided my mom haha. We finally told our parents and then made it fb official a couple days later. We printed out the picture I posted on fb and gave it to our families to announce this little baby's arrival.
Honestly, as horrible as this is, for a while I wasn't all that excited. I mean I knew this was what I wanted, and it wasn't an accident so why wasn't I as happy and excited as all of my other pregnant people encounters?! It didn't seem real, it almost still doesn't. I just felt so sick and kept thinking man, why do people willingly go through this (I know, I probably sound like the worst person ever). But I promise I really do want to start our family and be a mom, I just feel so sick and it doesn't seem like there's actually a baby in there so I think it has been hard for me to find that "glow" or that "this beautiful baby from God that I'm holding!" I'm sure I'll get there but I really just haven't found that yet :/
Although I will say, it turns out all I needed to do was tell my mom and let everyone know! After being out in the open, it started to feel a little more real, at least the excitement part!

So far with this pregnancy I have not thrown up. There have been a few times where I probably could've but I kept it down. Other than that I've just been super nauseous, heartburn, and  I'm tired. So tired. I've found a couple light stretch marks and I swear, you couldn't pay me to walk around with my pants buttoned, the pressure makes me nauseous! Any pressure, even to the point of a fitted shirt, makes me feel so sick. Man have garments been hard. So weird right? anyone else have this problem? I hope its something that eventually goes away.

So this is 12 weeks: I'm starting to feel better, everything is lightening up. My cravings have been mashed potatoes and sparkling beverages. Sonic is my new best friend. Only Sonic Coke is good right now, cherry limeade, and the occasional apple cider desire.
Chicken? The look (specifically grilled chicken), gag... the taste... no no no! That was a really tough adjustment in our house. I don't generally cook a lot but when I do (or did) it's chicken and rice, chicken and noodles, chicken casserole, anything chicken... The first couple weeks of no chicken were pretty rough, I had no idea what the frick to eat! So, it ended up being a lot of jack in the box, pizza, taco bell, pizza, in n out.. basically junk and fat. BAD IDEA. Ever had a ton of fast food for like 10 days straight? man the weight finds you. Ever since that little episode I've only gained a few pounds on top of the fat food pounds. Oops.

Call it a graduation gift

Matt has officially graduated the police academy and is now out on the streets. He is currently on FTO so he drives around in cop car doing cop like things only difference is that he has a partner in the car training him and walking him through situations. He really enjoys it and I've been enjoying the crazy stories, haha it's exactly what I signed up for.
September 19, 2014 was graduation day and man was it a busy one! We woke up early for the start of a big day, but before I got in the shower I decided to take a pregnancy test. I was a couple days late so just thought I'd check. I let the little test sit in the bathroom while I showered, tried not to get too hyped up, and when I got out of the shower, bam! It was positive. I thought about when and how to tell Matt but as I walked back to the bedroom he was just waking up and said hi and I said "Morning, oh guess what!" Turns out I couldn't hold on long enough to tell him in a cute Pinterest way.

I am so proud of Matt for making it through the academy and choosing such an honorable job. He looks great in his uniform ;) and our future baby is going to be so lucky to have such a cool daddy!